Running Wilde

Today was my second time at my running meet up group...( oh and in case any one is following i am 226 days quit...) running has become not just a new lifestyle...but my new habit...over 7 months ago i choose to change my life. I had major ups and downs...but the fog is lifting i have found my new life. I was even talking to someone about it and being the fastest girl in the group i loved hearing myself talk about how i have succeed. No worries i will never be cocky...just very proud.

i love running, i want to hang out with people who love running, i want to talk about running, shop for running, analyze running- but that is only the addict in my head. truly i have chosen running as my new cigarette and i am the biggest puffer i know... ha i just called myself a puffer.

so anyway- anyone looking for success stories on quitting... i got one, it feels awesome and i hate smokers now...as for the rest of things... look for topics....i have some ideas boiling....

Moving Day

The day is finally here...
Packing is done, good-byes are said, Harlem here I come.
I went to pick up my keys Thursday and I have never felt so amazed, so excited so thrilled. This is my home, I will not be sharing it, it is not temporary, it is happy happy place for me.

Saturday morning I will try the moving company route- first time I am depending on someone to do my dirty work...yes i am nervous that they won't show, that they will drop everything and that they will take off with my stuff in the van... but dude I am going to a 5th floor walk up...i want to keep the few friends I have.

Mo Mo and Mugs are at their wits end... they have no idea what is going on, but they will and soon they will have an amazing place to call their own- yep without the cat hahaha

So, with thanks to Brooklyn I saw so long suckas....

the fourth

as i welcome the fourth... i have also chosen to welcome what i have been chasing for at least 6 months now.

i welcome you happiness, i welcome you inner strength, i welcome you confidence, i welcome you happiness...
i have been a very miserable puppy for a while, it stated with the break up of a friend, and dealing with the sadness. Then the addition of a new friend so quickly after, and dealing with the rollercoaster of emotions. Then the lack of space and privacy in my home, my most treasured location. Then i quit which was so emotionally draining it was insane... in other words i have be off, very off. I am so tired of feeling off, I welcome serenity with open arms...

I have also learned a lot about myself this last year. I learned that the world is waiting for me and i need to join it.. I have started exercising, but not completely- so, "just do it". I have started being a leader at work but with so many distractions i'm distracted- so, "just do it"...
I have started a beautiful relationship but with my mind in such a dirty funk, i can't seem to give out a solid team mate- so, shake out the mess and just do it.

What is happening is a trial life right now...I hate trial life- i want the real thing...so starting today before you get into your new place, have that woman ready. If something is in the path of your happy life, cut it down...rude or not. If something has held you back cut the ties...be you be what you want to be, be as strong as i know you are...

you have made me so happy a million times from the strength that you have always had. I see that you don't believe in that anymore- but it is there see- there it is. Now walk forward today, stop holding back...

quit day...#....whatever...

does not matter never smoking again...(114)
also...

i am moving to Manhattan- Harlem to be exact...after 5 yrs in the BK...
peace., i need that 15 mins to the house... i also need the new abandoned houses and new restaurants and soul food style.

i also just need new ... seriously...mo, mugs- lets go dogs, threes company- moving on up...

one last note... if you are ready...you will do it- so get ready already!!!

smoke that.....

quit day #71

hellz yeah! hahaha...
i think that with my little cheat i actually got stronger! i understand the trigger now...i can see it!

i am one hell of a non smoker...gotta sleep so i can run in the am!!

day 46

the days flew by but sadly last night i had 5 cigs...

i am saying it's ok as long as i learn from this and come out of it stronger and even more convicted to this...and anyone asking...i am keeping my 46 days! ha!

Quit Day 26

Holly freaking smokes... really that long? Awesome!
It has been a journey and everyday that i have a million craves...I am a million times stronger for seeing the truth of the quit pledge. I know (no matter how bad i want it) if i have that one innocent smoke...it won't feel dramatic and I will try and sneak in another and another...so, instead I just keep becoming stronger and stronger...

As you can see even my need to post every 5 mins is waning. I believe it is because i don't have the constant fear of relapsing, or the constant ciggy thought...so yeah look forward to some better FASHIONABLE MOMO (and MUGS) post...cause it summer and my camera is finding it's way out of the bag more and more. But first how to organize those photos on my computer??? Hmmm? Any suggestions invisible world :)